i am finding it hard

to separate the important bits from the not-so -mportant
to recognise my personal way of doing things
to know what i want...
...from what is in my best interest
to just sit back and enjoy myself
to allow things to take a gentle pace
tp open myself
to curb jealousy
to stop eating junk food continuously

hardhardhard

x D

i am loving this song..

and loving everything at the moment

xx D

i am the team bitch

saturday on call..
why we have to see all surgical patients, in every ward, in the entire building
is really beyond me

it's boiling in the hospital
and outside, it's alternating between outbursts of the last winter sunshine
and fribbin' icy snow and hail

after our epic sweep of the patients
i'm sent to buy the team pizza and spicy chicken wings

in the midst of the snow, in my open top shoes



all i was missing was a mini skirt to completely freeze myself off


vasoconstriction is really not a good look on me

x D

on the other side

as matt so kindly suggested, it would be informational (if not entertaining! *tadaah*) for me to blog about the comings and goings of a doctor

so, why not start with my registration at the GPs?

out of pills, in a new part of london. need to register with the GP and sort out my prescription.

registering involves being badgered with questions. and being on the questioning side of the equation takes all the power away.
this makes me realise how much health professionals can bore you with information you already bloody know

any family history of heart attacks or strokes?

paternal grandmother, in her 70s

and diabetes?

yes, type 2 in my paternal grandfather

any cancers?

lung cancer with lobectomy in my maternal grandmother. and she never smoked.

liver caner in my paternal grandfather. and he never drank.

so do you do any exercise?

i drive to work everyday. and rely on ward work for burning calories.

*haha*

riiight. you should really try to do more exercise. you should be aiming for 30 mins -- at least -- in a day. you've got lots of risk factors. and it'll help to reduce those.

do you eat healthy foods? do i need to talk about good dieting with you? you should aim to increase the vegetable and fruit content in your meals.

no shit. you don't say lady...

on the plus side, i was given loads of free NHS stuff

(note how i emphasized on the free. surely the student days of freebies has worn off now?)

• contraceptive advice
• condoms (yes! i'm under 25, i get those latexy honeys for free)
• an STD test
• a one silver topped pee pot for (apparently) "proteins and sugar"

WOW

honestly. if the NHS wants me to continue using the service, they need to think about candy and clarins products as giveaways.

now i've just come out the other end feeling fat and slutty.

x D

btw, i have a BMI of 19, a cholesterol of 3 and have been veryveryvery good with the other thing

i've GOT to be eating for two

in order of consumption,

1 all butter croissant
over-ripe fairtrade banana
2 egg mayonnaise and cucumber rolls
portion of scampi
curly fries with gravy
cranberry juice
a couple of lifesavers (orange and watermelon!!)
packet of jelly babies -- in the car, whilst getting jiggy to mario
budini
4 squares of ricekrispymarshmallowy goodness
1 tall glass of tea

and it's not even dinner time..

someone please teach me the magic of calorie counting, or at least how to purge at will

x Diet?

ok, so i didn't go to a dance class...

...but i did go to the union for the finalists' drinks
where there was plenty of drinks, dancing and friends friends friends.

pictures courtesy of ken tam "tudbull" (yes, your boyfriend is g o r g e o u s)

ken + d + sinman

i sooo don't remember what we were talking about

it looks like sinman's really interested

and lola's expressing a need for a bigger chest

goodnight bitches

x D

i am taking this old body out to a dance class asap.

x D